Its not just another "selfie"
Sandy Tocci
Is it just another morning selfie {with a messy garage}?!?! Nope, not this time. I don't show you my progress and abs to be like "hey look at me", I do it to share a story; one that I'm sure some of you can relate to. It's a story that I hid for years, not knowing that THAT was hurting me more than ever. So some 6 years ago, I started to SHARE.... openly share my life, my progress, my frustrations, my HUMAN mistakes and some really awesome achievements. I'm not perfect, I'm perfectly imperfect and getting better everyday.
You see, all of this has been a journey--- 25 years to be exact. 25 years ago I developed an eating disorder and wanted my life to end. The day to day actions were SO intense that I could mentally talk myself in and out of ANYTHING--- including starving myself, isolating myself and completely drowning myself in negative self talk--- conversations that I had NO idea was damaging my once beautiful smile. Negativity that would eventually CONTROL my life... I was no longer in control. I was sick. Very very sick!
But what happened in the days, weeks, months and YEARSSSS after saved my life. I'm forever grateful for the help and support from others; especially my parents that have ALWAYS been by my side. It was easy to put the blame on others but eventually I grew up and realized that the ONLY thing I can control is ME and if I can control ME, all else will have to be. All else will fall into place in the way that God would want it to be. I know that my experience was meant to be shared and PROOF that you can get better.
It's been a journey and will continue to be a journey. Being hospitalized for 6-weeks and going through intense therapy and self-help was not a walk in the park. I may have walked away a few times but I've always come back, knowing that if I could just fight more day, I was getting better. With time, I started to heal from the inside out. My life changed!!!! My visions became a reality and those negative thoughts became more and more positive.
I get asked often about HOW I do it. How I wake up early. How I keep going. How I continue pushing when everything is pushing against me. The answer is SIMPLE.... it's ALLLL in the way I think and see myself. What I thought is what I became. Who I let into my life effected my thoughts--- positive and negative. You see, the way you talk to yourself, the words you use and the way you write become your beliefs and those beliefs become actions. Watch yourself and be careful what you say to yourself and others! Be careful who you surround yourself with. With a positive attitude, ANYTHING is possible. I mean if I can do it and pull my shit together after sooooo many years, SO CAN YOU!!! Trust me... you CAN!
Until the next selfie, lots of love and self-healing❤️
Coach Sandy T